Reflections for Every Day - January

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January 10

Shawila Says:

When life finally all caught up to me, and with around 10 years clean (I like to call it the 911 end of working AA in my life) I hit a hard emotional, spiritual, and physical bottom that I really believe was worse spiritually than the day I arrived to Alcoholics Anonymous. I wanted more than ever to drink or die. I didn't know which was going to come first, I just knew that, here I was 10 years without any alcohol or drugs and I wanted to be DRUNK or DEAD. I felt hopeless and desperate.
God's plan was different than mine, and little did I know at that point what was in store for me. With me bowing before my creator and asking for help. Surrendering to my disease of Alcoholism I was restored to some sanity to get help and to live sober "One Day At A Time," with the Spiritual Tools given so freely to me.